Dreamers make self-improvements

We've been busy working on the home for...well, forever.  And there's a lot to work on.  It's a 1980 contemporary ranch.  We love the floor plan.  We love all the space.  We don't love all the dated looks.

We have already remodeled one bathroom last summer.  And the kids' rooms have been completely updated from floor to ceiling, only we went in the opposite order, which is how all these remodels need to go.  And so. we're working on our next projects.  All we have left of the main living area is new flooring.  That is waiting on some tax return money.

Then it's on to other areas of the house.  We have the hall to repaint since the flooring will go down there, too.  We have the new lighting to get.  It's really dark in the hall.  And lighting is such a quick cheap fix.

I have this feeling that there will be some work done in the master bedroom.  It makes perfect sense.  That will be the one room that hasn't had new flooring.  And I worry about Kenna's lungs.  I worry that there will be too much old dust hanging around in the room she will be sleeping in the first year of her life.  So, if we can, we will fix that, too.

But we have to work on ourselves some.

Marriage isn't easy.  We need to take some time to connect in ways that we haven't for too long.  It's been a really long time since we've stayed up and just talked about anything other than business.  I know that it's our livelihood, but there's more than that.  There has to be more than that.

So, I bought a new dress and new shoes...for a business meeting.  It wasn't a compete transformation, but it was a lovely start.  It made me feel sexy.  And I need to feel sexy.  I need for him to see me as something more and to remember what drew him to me. 

And that we feel comfortable enough to start thinking about anything but Kenna all the time is a good sign.  It means she is improving.  It means that we are confident in her health.  And it feels really good to call the hospital and not be scared all the time.  Everything will be better in time.